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2007-08-22T19:14:00.000+08:00

2007-02-11T01:07:00.000+08:00

don't know why im suddenly feeling so wierded out man, i just done my OM script and the hyper feeling is vanishing):

maybe its what `mainey told me just now. or maybe not, i really dont know.

just so you know `mainey,

i'll be here for you(:
haha the Road's long and stay with me till the end!

2007-01-15T19:56:00.000+08:00

homework piles are evovling into mountains at an alarming rate.
i feel like cursing man.
this is so retarded please,

i'm just wishing for this year to be over already.

2007-01-15T19:23:00.000+08:00

Heart,

don't fail me now.

Courage,

don't desert me.

Don't turn back now that we're here. Stop us from faltering, please.

World,

you really make me tired sometimes.

2006-11-23T19:59:00.000+08:00

List of Nonsensical Things JUNYAN! Did Recently
(not without external influence from certain retarded beings)

1. She greets her hotel bathrooms.

2. She coaxes her camera to work for her.

3. She laughs at the computer screen.

4. She smiles at her mum while being scolded for abusing her computer privileges.

5. She has also started grinning to herself at random moments (be it in the bath or in bed) when she remembers the fun happenings in Shanghai.

2006-04-22T15:34:00.000+08:00

The Man is Lonely

2006-04-19T22:22:00.000+08:00

I had movie treat and dinner treat by the OM coaches. tried to ask them to be our coaches again, thought they would readily agree like ms jo ann lee but oh well, mrs quek said she had to see first 'cos she dint know what her commitments will be like next year...okok fine, i get the point.

so anyway, i was "late" and ms ku/ chiying were waiting for me at the foyer.Yeah felt kinda bad haha but heyyyyy guess what, the others actually left just before I came. AND, Ms ku, chiying, and i arrived before them! HA! now thats sth...(:

that was when cy told me of the change in plans, and i was like,"huh. you know i like practically bragged to everyone i know about a crystal jade dinner treat and now we're reduced to eating junk in the cinema." -.-''' but things were a lil better cos uhm we ate in VIENTHAI beside the cinema lol hey its good la. my tom yam was super shiok. oh man im drooling....

sigh not in the mood to blog anymore. haha too busy selecting songs to put in my mp3 cum thumbdrive. which my dad got for S$60. cool huh, will get an ipod later. this'll have to do for now

ciao

2006-04-16T13:15:00.000+08:00

ergh.

I can't stand my sister. She goes around destroying things like nobody's business and give people that look when you reprimand her. And the worst part? She waits till she's ready before she tells you which belonging of yours she broke. It's usually a long wait.

sigh, OM. Odyssey of the Mind. It sure has been hell of a ride. All our efforts come to nought, yeah i'm really disappointed by all this, results and stuff. I guess it couldn't be helped that things turned up the way it has, we prepared so hard or at least I prepared so hard to have the performance screwed in the end. Say, I think I wanna try again for next year. I mean the experience and goodies are quite appealing! (: And the bonus is that this time, we can start working on OM earlier! uhm...maybe in october. Now that's a start, and comparable to Claudia's winning team who started their work around november (she said 6 months). The only difficult is

Peanuts II at ASCI just before spontaneous.

(picture taken by Ms Teng MF)

that who will form a team with me? When I enter next year's competition, it definitely won't be Peanuts II. Not that I am unwilling or anything, but I wonder who would still want to take part in Odyssesy of the Mind again in among the members. Ok ok, shall stop worrying about that, still too early. For now, I'll give my all for studies and drop all thoughts. Until october, when I can focus fully on OM after acheiving satisfying academic results.

Gaahhh. Wished all OM teams were excused for Monday's test. so scickening, no mood already, how t study! bleargh.

2006-04-11T22:23:00.000+08:00

To catch me...
YOU got to be fast

To find me...
YOU got to be smart

To be me...
DAMN, YOU GOT TO BE KIDDING!!
____________________________
DO NOT DISTURB! (I'm disturbed enough already.)
->Hey look on the bright side! Not everybody hates you as much as I do(:

2006-04-09T19:44:00.001+08:00

The liquid in the cup was fizzling. I brought the cup of hissing drink towards me and peered into the cup. It spat at me, leaving tiny droplets of water on my otherwise clean face. I made a brave attempt to take a swig out of that invigorating beverage. Success! I managed to gulp it down in a minute. The only remains of the sparkling drink were the froth on my lips.

2006-04-09T19:08:00.000+08:00

Tsunami

So close and so near

Yet so far, so distant

First like the creamy edge of a cake

Just plain messy

Then like the baking of Cook

That went awry

Those wrathful waves pounding ashore

Unthinkable heights, us terrified to the core

Imagine a paradise once filled with wonders

Imagine in a second it disappeared fast under

So close, yet so far

2006-04-09T17:44:00.000+08:00

I an trying hard to find a way of changing the colour of my name after each post because lime green just doesn't seem to appear on a white background.

Ok, you prolly know how to. So, issit the html? or the settings? or the blogskin?

wondering..thinking...

anyway, i don't want this post to be filled with nothing except the above. I will change my subject now. Oh, i know. oh no wait. Aiyar. See, I wanted to post pictures, then this wave of despodency suddnly swept over moi when I thought about tmrw's tests. Grr.

My grades are like so sucky, and it's slipping slipping away. down. to zero. -GASPS- such a horror! :( I'm really anxious. I badly wanna do well this year...for everthing I lost out on LAST year. think i had too much fun last year, fooling around. Plus, this yearis rather imp. The streaming and all, so if i do well for this year, then i can at least slack a little for 2007. Sigh, now i just made myself guilt-stricken by typing so much, spending so much time on my blog and not using this time to pull up my socks.

hey, i wonder how she did it...oh that reminds me, i never got around to asking her what her subject combination was. as in humanities, we might share the same interests! haha(:

Well, i got some new blog adds to link up. shall go do it nowww....

Au Revoir

2006-04-08T19:08:00.000+08:00

Joke of the Day:

Why is the males' intelligence worth more than the females'?
It is rarer.

haha. i'm laughing! (:

by myself?

I got character

2006-04-08T18:46:00.000+08:00

2005-12-04T15:24:00.000+08:00

Let's have a look at two definations:

'ecstacy'
or methylenedioxy methamphetmine (MDMA) causes permanent damage to the brain, heart and liver. Besides suffering from paranoia and anxiety , abusers can die from fatigue and dehydration.

'esthecy'
or ecsthecy esthetic (EYEYE) causes permanant impact on the brain, heart and eyes. Besides suffering from mania and exhilaration, abusers can die from exhaustion and lack of air.

It rocks and shocks. Beware. Be warned. Be prepared.

(: used to be friendster profile but I dont think it's sort of convienient now... so... yeah. hahas!

2005-12-04T12:29:00.000+08:00

ITS THE ADVENT MONTH! :)

so exciting isnt it.

this year flew past so damn fast. im sad. hearts aching. why does the end of the year always always come so soon and disappear around the calendar like flash? why. i hate januaries all the way till junes. has a kind of prolonged "Monday blues" in those months.

year year go away;
come again another day

2005-12-04T12:12:00.000+08:00

Memo to all students:

In order to assure the highest levels of quality work and productivity from students, it will be our policy to keep all students well taught through our program of SPECIAL HIGH INTENSITY TEACHING (S.H.I.T.).

We are trying to give our students more S.H.I.T. than any other school. If you feel that you do not receive your share of S.H.I.T. on the course, please see your lecturer. You will be immediately placed at the top of the S.H.I.T. list, and our lecturers are especially skilled at seeing that you get all the S.H.I.T. you can handle.

Students who don't know S.H.I.T. will be placed in DEPARTMENTAL EDUCATIONAL EVALUATION PROGRAMS (D.E.E.P. S.H.I.T.). Those who fail to take D.E.E.P. S.H.I.T. seriously will have to go to EDUCATIONAL ATTITUDE TRAINING (E.A.T. S.H.I.T.).
Since our lecturers took S.H.I.T. before they graduated, they don't have to do S.H.I.T. anymore, as they are all full of S.H.I.T. already.

If you are full of S.H.I.T., you may be interested in a job teaching others. We can add your name to our BASIC UNDERSTANDING LECTURE LIST (B.U.L.L. S.H.I.T.).

For students who are intending to pursue a career in management and consultancy, we will refer you to the department of MANAGERIAL OPERATIONAL RESEARCH EDUCATION (M.O.R.E. S.H.I.T.). This course emphasizes on how to manage M.O.R.E. S.H.I.T.

If you have further questions, please direct them to our HEAD OF TEACHING, SPECIAL HIGH INTENSITY TRAINING (H.O.T. S.H.I.T.).

Thank you

BOSS IN GENERAL SPECIAL HIGH INTENSITY TEACHING
(B.I.G. S.H.I.T.)

2005-11-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

GRRRR.

this is such a delima. why of all times is my dad not in town.

First, i have a goodie bag to be collected tens of kilometres away frm my hse early in the morning at seven o'clock.

Second, i have a party to attend at Pasir Ris till late into the night. how on earth am i getting back. and of course, i cant just skip THIS PARTY its a NO WAY.

uh-uh

howhow???

(now tt i got the presents)

AU SECOUR!

2005-11-29T13:31:00.000+08:00

D A N G !!

wth happened

to my friendster profile! the whole chunk i wrote
is go n e.

d
A NG!

2005-11-28T11:53:00.000+08:00

Hahas I said no more lyrics...but, i really love this song.

"It's not just make belive" from Ella Enchanted.

watched it like three times last year, and twice this year. rather addictive. -grin
The tune is catchy and the lyrics are really fitting; those mentions of disney characters. I LIKE EH!

2005-11-28T11:46:00.000+08:00

I thought that I was to old to believe in fairy tales
But there's letter from you waiting when I checked my mail

I start to shake like a 7 on the richter scale when you say you love me
I look in the mirror and I'm not who I used to be at all

It's coming clearer

I'm Cinderella at the ball; I'm Alice growing 10 feet tall
It's not just make believe

Here comes the prince's kiss;I'm positive the slipper fits
It's not just make believe

It started out like just another ordainary day
Now suddenly my lifes diffrent in every way
The sun is brighter and my happness is hear to stay
It's like I'm dreaming

Thank you for showing me that true love doesn't hurt when you fall
You got me glowing

I'm Cinderella at the ball;I'm Alice growing 10 feet tall
It's not just make believe

Here comes the prince's kiss;I'm positive the slipper fits
It's not just make believe

Whenever, wherever forever I'll be with you

We have it it's magic ohhhh
Look in the mirror and I'm not who I used to be at all

It's coming clearer

I'm Cinderella at the ball;I'm Alice growing 10 feet tall
It's not just make believe

This feeling happening
I feel so good I gotta sing
It's not just make believe

Ariel above the sea I'm Beauty dancing with The Beast
It's not just make believe

Here comes the prince's kiss;I'm positive the slipper fits
It's not just make believe

Yeah It's not just make believe
It's not just make believe

2005-11-27T10:44:00.000+08:00

HI (:

AFTER A LONG BREAK IM BACK! HAHA

ok.

IM SO HAPPY
MAPLES FINALLY FULL SCREEN!
AND I DECLARE THE WIZARDING WORLD OF HARRY POTTER ROCKS!
PLUS CHRISTMAS IS JUST ROUND THE CORNER! I SAY, PEEK-A-BOO!

harry potter craze;
I FOUND SO MANY PHOTOS
JOP! SCREAM H-O-T sizzlesizzle
AND BABY PICS OF DAN/TOM/JAMES/OLIVER

post again soon!

promise~

2005-10-19T13:17:00.000+08:00

get the crowd linning

and the party a-waiting

I'm going to threesincerity for a fact. and later fourincerity, evident.

2005-10-19T13:10:00.000+08:00

B R E AK A WA Y

2005-10-19T13:02:00.000+08:00

Jun Yan
BOUNCE; higher than ever
is a rubber ball
bounce

and she'll bounce... bounce

bounce bounce

2005-10-17T08:58:00.000+08:00

JUST RETURNED FROM CARREFOUR

CARREFOUR;

the fresh food ppl
bigger than cold storage
the hypermarket
the french hypermarket

i didnt know tt till mme cirieco told us the other day. heh

AND IM PISSED. ANNOYED. IRRITATED. HMPH.
Fudder went happily shutting down the com, after closing my MS DL WINDOW for the DEUX time. not only tt, the first time, it was TWO more hours. THIS TIME IT WAS ONE MORE HOUR! effffffffffingggggggggggggggggg.

WTH.

NOW MUDDERS SHOUTING.
...!
...!
...!
...!

AND FOR MS, IM SO LAG. JH N WEEELAH THEY'RE LIKE SO OFF. LVL DUNNO HOW MANY HURHUR AND MOI?? A PATHETIC MEASLY SEVENTEEN.

UHHHH

AND THIS DARN DL THING, IT TAKES AROUND FIVE HOURS PLUS SOME MORE MINUTES TO COMPLETE. I WONT BE PLAYING THOSE HOGGING GAMES ON CARTOON NETWORK NOW IF ONLY DAD DIDNT SHUT IT DOWN. AND HE WAS LIKE

"You still dl the thing?? take so long!!"

I SAID

"I dl it last time and it didnt affect your work did it? no. just let me play!"

BUT IT WAS ALR SHUT ANYWAY AND IF HE SHUTS THIS DOWN AGAIN TROISEME
I THINK I'LL BURST. OR I MIGHT AS WELL DL IT THROUGH THE NIGHT.

LIKE HELLO??!! I ATTEMPTED TO DL THIS RUDDY THANNGG FOUR SOLID TIMES OK. FOUR TIMES. FOUR!! carrefour anyway FOUR. SHITTY. BLOODY. TIMES.

2005-10-17T05:36:00.000+08:00

WOW

HELLO ! (:

its been a long time.

which was, uh, *left brian frozen and mathematically disabled a.k.a Mrs Tan*

hmm...

*thinking*

i think it was...

*thinks REAL hard*

ehh...

*finally...*

THREE WEEKS AGO!

is tt rite?

wait

uhh, 9/30 minus 10/16 equals

no abt two weeks

or so

gee. i just LOVE my estimation! x)

2005-09-30T16:47:00.000+08:00

Goodbye to you my trusted friend
We've known each other since we were nine or ten
Together we've climbed hills and trees
Learned of love and ABC's
Skinned our hearts and skinned our knees
Goodbye my friend it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that spring is in the air
Pretty girls are everywhere
Think of me and I'll be there

We had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time
Goodbye Papa please pray for me I was the black sheep of the family
You tried to teach me right from wrong
Too much wine and too much song
Wonder how I got along
Goodbye papa it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Little children everywhere
When you see them I'll be there
We had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone
We had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone

Goodbye Michelle my little one
You gave me love and helped me find the sun
And every time that I was down
You would always come around
And get my feet back on the ground
Goodbye Michelle it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere I wish that we could both be there
We had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time
We had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone

2005-09-30T13:31:00.000+08:00

I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything's alright
My pressure on your hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that's what you want me to do

2005-09-27T10:20:00.000+08:00

I feel the heat around me
I feel the beat surrounds me
Could this be for real, I wonder
No need for hesitation
It's time for celebration
Will this be the night I've waited for

When angels fall in love
Heaven knows, does it show
If this love, will last for eternity
Set me on fire

I believe, I believe in love
And like the stars above
They shine, let it shine over me
Set me free I believe in you
And that our love is true
I believe, I believe

I see that people dancing
Boys and girls romancing
They want this to last forever

Cause underneath the moonlight
Everything is alright
We're reaching our hands up in the air

To where the souls alive
Heaven knows, that it shows oh
If this love, will last for eternity
Set me on fire

How could I doubt, what was meant to be
Everything I needed was in front of me
Your healing touch, will lift me up in the sky, so high

2005-09-27T10:17:00.000+08:00

You ain't nothin' but a hound dog
Cryin' all the time.
You ain't nothin' but a hound dog
Cryin' all the time.
Well, you ain't never caught a rabbit
And you ain't no friend of mine.

When they said you was high classed,
Well, that was just a lie.
When they said you was high classed,
Well, that was just a lie.
You ain't never caught a rabbit
And you ain't no friend of mine.

2005-09-22T13:02:00.000+08:00

ms tan just told us the specifics for hist today. if only we could do tt for EVERY SINGLE DAMNED subject. how nice. snapping out from those thoughts, i think i am on my deathbed now. cos guess what. dear little missy me havent started studying yet. yay. how so cool and amazing right? erff so much work, so little time.

save me SomebodY~

2005-09-19T13:35:00.001+08:00

forget love , forget fate

don't stop walking- till the end, till the end

even the best fall down sometimes, if not often for they cant stand alone

would you stop if i asked you to

try changing my unchangeable mind; it ain't gonna work babe

what i've said is not what i've done

I am not a vegetarian because I love animals; I am a vegetarian because I hate plants.

When it is dark enough, you can see the stars.

Temperamental. That's 90% temper and 10% mental.

I fought the law and the law won. Show me the logic.

2005-09-19T13:35:00.000+08:00

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

Jun Yan's feeling guilty 'cos she isnt doing revision like the rest.

2005-09-19T01:11:00.000+08:00

BECAUSE I LIKE IT THAT WAY --what are you going to do?

AND I'M NOT KEEN ON CHANGING --will you change then?

2005-09-18T07:51:00.000+08:00

The ABC's Of My Misery

Abandoned, Agonized, Apathetic and Apart
Black becoming the color of my heart

Betrayed, Bleeding, Bitter and Broken
Violent cries are the only things spoken

Calamity, Crushed, Confused and Cold
This pain inside, I can no longer withhold

Discouraged, Disheartened, Destroyed and Distressed
Suffering with the ache of true loves test

Exhausted, Emotionless, Embittered and Encased
Will the memories ever cease to fade? Will they ever erase?

Frightened, Frantic, Falling and Forsaken
Body so weak, heart splintered and shattering

Grieving, Gloomy, Grumpy and Grim
No longer alive, no longer in heaven

Hopeless, Humiliated, Heartbroken and Hurting
Each breath I take my heart starts burning

Injured, Inconsolable, Isolate and Impatient
Please stop this pain, I no longer can take it

Jammed, Joyless, Jinxed and Jittery
His kiss and his touch will forever haunt me

Kaput, Klutzy, Kicked and Killed
Without his love, I have no will

Lonely, Lethargic, Lamenting and Low
The punch to my heart; an excruciating blow

Mourning, Mortified, Miserable and Mutilated
No longer feeling the happiness only he created

Nauseated, Nostalgic, Needful and Naive
My life has lead me down on my knees

Oppressed, Overwhelmed, Obsessed and Offended
Why can't my heart understand it has ended?

Punctured, Petrified, Paralyzed and Pained
So much left unsaid, so much left unexplained

Quiet, Qualm, Queasy and Quavering
This pain cannot hide, my tears no longer waiting

Restless, Ruined, Ripped and Resent
He stole my soul without my consent

Saddened, Suffering, Shocked and Still
Dreams and hopes never to be fulfilledT

roubled, Tormented, Torn and Throbbing
Begging to stop this uncontrollable sobbing

Unhappy, Uncomfortable, Upset and Uneasy
Heart feeling empty, stomach so queasy

Violated, Vegetating, Vindictive and Vex
The only one I'll ever love, has become my ex

Worried, Withdrawn, Wounded and Weak
Not able to be nourished, not able to speak

X friend, X lover, X hopes, X dreams
To get him back, I'd go through extremes

Yearning, Yelping, Yammer and Yelling
Will I make it through this day? There's no telling

Zip, Zilch, Zapped and a Zero
I'm nothing to him, yet he's still my hero....

2005-09-14T13:49:00.000+08:00

Lost. feeling so helpless,
so lazy,
like I'm useless,
not doing any thing productive.
at all.

Tired. weary and down,
really sick of all these commotion going around me,
especially when I don't know why.
explain.

Go away. leave me,
I can do without your frequent rantings
and irritating buzzing
isolation is not good for me.
who does care anyway.

2005-09-13T13:17:00.000+08:00

2005-09-06T05:52:00.000+08:00

Sometimes swinging UpSiDe DoWn...
Makes you see the world in a whole new light
Makes you feel tonnes better than what you were feeling
Makes your worries and troubles rush to your head
Makes you wanna break down and cry

2005-09-06T05:47:00.000+08:00

Look at our shadows
Tall and so bold
Dark and so cold
Outlined on the tiled floor

Look at our shawdows
Elongated shapes
Pronounced gangly
Not what we actually are

2005-09-03T02:28:00.000+08:00

Fun in the Sun

--with friends

Getting cosy

--with friends

2005-09-03T02:19:00.000+08:00

take my hand
hold it tight
never let go
as we travel the land

hold it tight
don't even thinking of loosing grip
walk me to the polar lights
take my hand

bring me with you;
Let's fly away.

2005-09-02T10:15:00.000+08:00

i'm sitting here in the boring room
It's just another rainy sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time
I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and i wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast
I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and i wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that i can see is just a yellow lemon tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that i can see is just another lemon tree

I'm sitting here
I miss the power
I'd like to go out taking a shower
But there's a heavy cloud inside my head
I feel so tired
Put myself into bed
While nothing ever happens and i wonder

Isolation is not good for me
Isolation i don't want to sit on the lemon-tree

I'm steppin' around in the desert of joy
Baby anyhow i'll get another toy
And everything will happen and you wonder

2005-09-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

all you need is love

love is all i need

somehow or another, Somebody doesn't get it. why.

2005-09-01T11:20:00.000+08:00

It's all about you (it's all about you)
It's all about you baby
It's all about you (it's all about you)
It's all about you

Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smile, it's all about you
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too
Said you make my life worthwhile, it's all about you

And I would answer all your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles, it's all about you

And I would answer all your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes you make my life worthwhile
So I told you with a smile
It's all about you
It's all about you (it's all about you)
It's all about you baby

2005-08-24T12:49:00.000+08:00

Kill! There, I felt it. That sudden urge, as though a part of me deep asleep was awoken. The sword was in hand, I was dressed in crisp white and gold. The only thought that surfaced in my mind was to kill, and to kill, I will stop at nothing, nothing at all.

She was once mine, we were once one. But now we are all one. She is all and all is her. We are the Morah, the legion. She is the Morah.

I marched on, out of the darkness, into her room, memories of the past surfaces, we were weak, we only had each other then, but now it’s all different. We are not alone. We will never fear like we used.

“Kill, kill, kill, kill! Kill, kill, kill!” I sang that song with pride, I slashed my sword proud.
Then, I saw her. We were young, she was young. We were filled with insecurities and fear. We were weak, in love and happy. That is over now. We are strong.

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__*wad the heck. crappy teachers do crappy stuff. but but this is not crappy.. hee. `laineyy created it

2005-08-24T12:34:00.000+08:00

HAII...sigh

I am so so darn bloody BORED now........this has to be the most boringest day of my msn life. X(

Let's see...*ticks off finger one by one* I cant spam tisha's blog anytime soon, cos ian just deleted many tags, and i currently dun have any topic to tag on. u noe, make it foolhardy enuf, to make tisha ans to them. like she did. once.
AND, my 3sther isn't online at the moment, prob slogging or sth, tho i think she shld slack a lil (hey, just abit k?) aft chem prac todaYY. I kinda wished her a silent but not TOO silent good luck.
I just reliased: Esth sure laughs ALOT. yeah, good for her. whee. *in a monotonous tone* im still not feeling energised enough..prob i shld turn in. sigh...9.25pm now. I have got math and lit and music to complete though...erghh. Math is a WHOLE bunch of complicated stuff...revison, ewww.
Sigh sigh sigh. SIGH.

I know whr I stand ok? I'm so NOT spoilt. So NOT pampered. I'm a big sister to two younger kiddos, how much more 'spoilt' and 'pampered' can I get?? Not more than YOU, i'm betting a million. What do you know abt sibling love? ONLY CHILD.

--piss off now.

2005-08-24T00:49:00.000+08:00

I AM BORED
I AM ANGRY
I AM SAD
I AM UNHAPPY
I AM DISAPPOINTED
I AM SHOCKED
I AM GUILTRIDDEN
I AM SHIOK
I AM DEAD
I AM TIRED
I AM HATE
I AM LOVE
I AM ESTHETIC
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I AM JUN YAN

2005-08-22T03:38:00.000+08:00

PEOPLE

WRITE ME TESTIMONIALS ON FRIENDSTER NOW!

I demand a testimonial from each person who is my friend on friendster who is reading this post! erghh, pls i need one desperately N O W! (cover sth up)

Sheesh, or I'm so gonna be in hothot soup. Hiding. At the bottom of bowl.

2005-08-20T12:07:00.000+08:00

Je l'ai fait l'ai aujourd'hui fait que je l'ai rapportée avec ___ et ___. F * l'abt nonchalant resté il exposition de vacarme toutes les expressions particulières, mais moi suspectent fortement elle ait un mauvais intérieur de temps elle doit s'être senti que totalement choqué attrapé disapointed. une croissance entière des sentiments. je vous dis que ceux sont les négatifs. l'cOh bien, estacade à claire-voie. je il le soin brun grisâtre de tour en arrière maintenant i biseauté.
Elle descend dessous.

2005-08-19T22:58:00.000+08:00

You are a true friend at heart. You can't stand it
when your friend is in pain and you hate it
when you see your friend crying. You'd do
anything to help your friend out.

2005-08-10T01:11:00.000+08:00

How to make a Jun Yan

Ingredients:
3 parts mercy
5 parts humour
5 parts ego

Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little sadness if desired!

2005-08-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

J	Jolly
U	Unusual
N	Nice

Y	Yucky
A	Ambitious
N	Nutty

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com

2005-08-09T10:14:00.000+08:00

E	Earthy
S	Serious
T	Tender
H	Hot
E	Exquisite
R	Responsible

omg. how true is this.

2005-08-06T13:13:00.000+08:00

the times of joy,

longingly mourned

the days of freedom,

long gone

the moments of thrills,

longingly worn

the ties that bind,

long torn

2005-08-04T08:57:00.000+08:00

Here are some worth reading lines created by me. its copyrighted

-"Stop the Tisha" to quit acting oh-so-sweetly-bitchy and overmature.

-"Malu-iation" embarrassment

-"Esthetic" you-know-what

more coming right upp...

2005-07-31T15:58:00.000+08:00

What made me lie

you ask

What tempted my greed

you wonderr

What agitated my violence

you inquire

Now comes the dawning of truth

for i was... ...

walking alongside with the Enemy

2005-07-31T15:55:00.000+08:00

I never never ever knew

the wurld to be such a dark place

full of hatred and despair

with hypocritical foes whom u dun realise are just next to u

I never ever knew

the "friends" around are not even there at all

they are just imaginary, impalpable, insubstantial

making sure u fall hard without existent hands to catch u

I never knew.

Did you ?

2005-07-30T23:18:00.000+08:00

AND YOU CAN CHEAT ALL YOU WANT AS WELL??

You know, i dun trust you anymore. You're so totally unfit! NOT worthy one bit to be perfect.
why don't u just shooo off outta my sight. Barbarian bimbotic filthy hypocrite. eww. dont act. you make it worse. dont do a 'tisha' too, you look positively irritatable. (shedoesntwannaadmitshesshort)
Know something? I'm gonna make sure, make sure you get up THERE. high and mighty. I'll even help you. Then, i'm gonna let you drop. tumble down, fall, hard, to the ground.
Heard me? this is how i respond. to your actions. shameless brat.

2005-07-29T14:13:00.000+08:00

To me, scgs, it has always felt like home. Suprising tt this has only just occured to me. 'cos whenever i step into a school, apart from sc, i am fully aware that this is a school this is public this is not...home. I just kinda get the "schoolie" feeling. Yet whenever i walk into scgs, be it running for the courtyard at top speed lest i be late or just simply arriving in the canteen coolly, the thought tt sc is a school, public and not my own snuggly nesting grounds never ever popped out in my head. Never.
Talk about cca. bball. it's such a nice thing to be crying, hugging, laughing at the same time, wiping away tears. tears from her, your teammates. and having yours cleaned by her. Sec four, the bestest year. I'll make sure i leave sc with no regrets..

2005-07-19T10:27:00.000+08:00

Dancing bears,
Painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December

Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...

Far away, long ago
Glowing dim as an ember
Things my heart used to know,
Things it yearns to remember

And a song someone sings
Once upon a December

2005-07-19T08:35:00.000+08:00

Looking forwards, i feel sadder and sadder by the moment. The swapping of seats in class, unbearable. The multiplying number of projects, agonizing. The graduation of the sec fours, insufferable. And the saddest thing is that they are all
Sighh tok abt the sec fours. OMG, how does she know?? I mean like how can she know?? Anyway, i just added joy on msn, for sujah's sake. hahas. Gonna ask and confirm she really is SUJAH'S JOY before sujah adds her.
Yupps. And there's sth bigg i have planned. INTERVIEW ESTHER. plus the other sec four bballers, and i'm gonna give it to the sec threes more like Val to show it during the bball camp in december. hahas. But i'm in a delima now, as whether to carry on executing the plan or not 'cos val knows. and it'll be damned damned embarrassing. Humiliating.

Dear Mrs P. Mao

2005-07-13T09:41:00.000+08:00

As far as i know, 1SY is missing you. Lotz and lotz. Or at least for me and those people sitting one metre around me. Mr John Teo is just not as meticulous as you are, taking every effort to make sure that the materials and notes we get is sufficient or maybe even more than we need! I'm not saying I dislike Mr Teo though, it's just that he's just as inexperienced as you are experienced.
I feel really really inconfident of the results of my next Geography test. How well will I fare? It's gonna be a nightmare! That's what I say. Maybe, I should go talk to Mr Teo after Geog tomorow...yes I think I should. Tell him, tell him that he needs to buck up. "Buck-up!" Yay.
That might work. Knock some sense into him. But even so, I would seriousy want to have you back. Mrs Mao, I want you back. We miss you. Can you hear me?

Joke

2005-07-08T11:58:00.000+08:00

My dear Jagjit,

I am in a well here and hoping you are also in a well there. I'mwriting this letter slowly, because I know you cannot read fast.

We are not living where we did when you left home. Your dad read in the newspaper that most accidents happen 20 miles from home, so we moved 20 miles.I am not able to send the address, as the last Sardar who stayed here took the house numbers with them for their new house so they would not have to change their address. Hopefully by next week we will be able to take our earlier address plate here, and that our address will remain same too.

This place is really nice. It even has a washing machine, situated right above the toilet. But I'm not sure it works too well. Last week I put in 3 shirts, pulled the chain, and haven't seen them since. The weather here isn't too bad. It rained only twice last week. The first time it rained for 3 days and second time for 4 days.

The coat you wanted me to send you, your Aunt said it would be a little too heavy to send in the mail with all the metal buttons, so we cut them off and put them in the pocket.Your father has another job. He has 500 men under him. He is cutting the grass at the cemetery.By the way, I took Bahu to our club's poolside. The manager is Badmash. He told her that two piece swimming suit is not allowed in his club. We were confused as to which piece we should remove. hmm.

Your sister had a baby this morning. I haven't found out whether it is a girl or a boy, so I don't know whether you are an Aunt or Uncle. By the way, your uncle Jetinder fell in the nearby well. Some men tried to pull him out, but he fought them off bravely and drowned. We cremated him and he burned for three days.Your best friend, Balwinder, is no more. He died trying to fulfill hisfather's last wishes. His father had wished to be buried in the sea after he died. And your friend died while in the process of digging agrave for his father.

There isn't much more news this time. Nothing much has happened.

Love, Mom.

P.S I was going to send you some money but by the time I realized, I had already sealed off this letter.

2005-07-07T12:38:00.000+08:00

Dear dear DEAR Esther,

Im gonna really be missing you alot after you graduate. Seriously. be sure to come back to SC and visit us k? You're the best senior anyone can ever have.

hugsandkisses

2005-07-07T11:35:00.000+08:00

To:: Miss Quek, our new history teacher

I am doing you the favour of telling you that my class, 1SY, has a totally -ve impression of you. [or at least the pple sitting within one metre of diameter from my seat.=] Mann, aren't you pitiful to have students who don't appreciate soprano. Gek and i were like totally unmoved by your melodiously monotonous rants. We were like in fact, rather disturbed by your shrills in the beginning. But by the end of the lesson, i got over it more or less.
Off with your voice traits. Hmm, i do think you have done quite good a job so far in revising our past lessons. But then, don't gloat, 'coz they are revisions only! I think it was me, already understanding the concepts and stuff, instead of you helping me to probe deeper into the subjects. Dav and I, we thought you went a little too fast. Slow it.
Then again, I've only known you for 10 hours or less, so i guess i cant really like say too much about you yeah?

Yours Sincerly,

(Ps: Note tt i've used ''totallies" in the attempt to compliment you, after all, how many "totally"s and/or "like"s have you used since you opened your mouth this morning?)

2005-07-06T11:18:00.000+08:00

Dear Tisha,
I have totally NO idea why are you so vain! Hmm, that didn't sound good. Ok, let me re-phrase myself::.It really does erk me when i visit your blog shared with your dearie. Gosh, do you have to be that mushy? I don't mean to be xtra mean or sth, but girl, you're only sixteen. Sex, love, stuff... ...they just don't enter in this critical period of your life, they come later. You get it, no? Prefect but not perfect. Naughty-haughty lil thing, you've been putting make-up to school haven't you? =( Sensibility and emotional quotient you lack. Vainity is every girl's thing i suppose, but u make me wonder if you have overly reactive hormones that makes you too mature.
=0
Eeeks, this post is getting too sickk, because of you. Shall have nth else to say at this moment.
"W.A.K.E. U.P"
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2005-07-05T16:17:00.000+08:00

Dear Mom,

I know what you've done is for us.
I know what you've said is painfully meant.
I know why you've reacted that way.
I know why you've never meant it to be.
I know how you've been putting up with us
I know how you've endured and perservered
I know when you've broken down
I know when you've rejoiced
I know where you've ached terribly
I know where you've been secretly stabbed by us

I know where, when, what, why, how, but tell me

Who was is ? Who is it ?
that have made you this disapointed.

I know i did.

I'm sorry. for everything.

Dear XXXXXXXXX

2005-07-04T19:56:00.000+08:00

Dearest *** xxxxxxxxx (or not),
You have no idea how much i hate you!! +D And how much i find you annoying. Yes, even more annoying than you find ME. And you know wad? I am also trying very very hard to convince myself that I do actually have a tiniest, teensy bit of liking for you deep down. Maybe even harder than you. Who knows. God does. Hmm, let's see what do i find infuriating about you.
Check this out::. 1)You hate me
2)You are a hypocrite
3)You gossip mercilessly
Wow, i guess that is so true. Now let's list out why do you find me bothersome.
1)I can't play ball as well as you do. [butter yea? we'll see abt tt]
2)That's what been bugging all the time
3)I am ignorant
Yeah, see that? Sheesh I think you're really silly to make conclusions wifout evidence. You just don't know me well enough.
Break that invisible cement wall you've built in between you and me. I so wanna see your true colours. One last thing; take this or leave it.

(PS; this game will end once you stop hating me. 'Cos, it all started with your irritation. =)

First Cry

2005-07-01T13:15:00.000+08:00

hihihi
i finallly finalised my blog!! YAY three cheers!